Two blogs in a week. I know!
News is, I crashed last weekend. I was doing that thing just prior of trying to cram 20 tasks into a day, creatively and around the house, plus spend time sitting and reading trying unsuccessfully to relax.
Following that I've had two existential crises, the latter one pretty bad on Wednesday. I wanted to give in, simple as that. We're all at our limits, stressed, and affected energetically by what's going on. It's understandable and human.
I did a bit of what is termed 'shadow work' in Tuesday night's meditation (did you know Black Moon Lilith and Chiron, The Wounded Healer, went conjunct the day after, on the 15th?) and woke Wednesday angry as you – very much wouldn't – like. I believe the two are connected – my meditation and my subsequent outburst. It takes time to accept the shadow aspect but once you do start to embrace it, you find you have newfound energy. Mine is Leo power, the leader, the one that basks in attention, and fire energy, hence all the anger. It's not my natural way, but embrace it I must try (ooh, I've gone all Yoda again).
MAGIC & TIMING
Anyway, after a lengthy talking-down-off-the-ledge, so to speak, I woke Thursday at 5am refreshed and ready for a new start. So much so, I got up and dressed and went outside to do something else new, to watch and film the sunrise.
As part of » EAST direction » I had been intending to do this but I'd not wanted to put the alarm on specially. I put my faith in timing, that I would wake up when it was the right day for it, and lo, it happened just like that. Excitedly, I crept out and managed to have extra layers to hand against the early morning, dewy chill.
Thursday proved to be a still, beautiful and warm spring day. The sunrise was glorious and peaceful. I haven't yet prepared a full video but I will soon and post it. Just me and the birds over an hour's duration (the film will be a lot shorter, promise!).
And today my tent arrived which has been delayed in delivery, as many things are right now. I had begun to give up on that idea, but things are looking up again. Ups and downs. Life. And creatively, I'm back on track.